Early morning visions of self and environment

 We wake up with a blip and look for people around us and then look for what’s next ..some days we are excited some days lazy so days just hopeless about the day and some days super excited 

Routine seems to be same same rhythm just different is the life state or so to say motivation ..my pre work out drinks and caffeine give a good dose of motivation or so called kick ..

On the thoughts that come mind are targets, money, kids , spirituality and family..this actually changes with age and with situations ..when I was in a shitty place I used to dream about getting out of that when I got out -(however I got out) I now dream of better things don’t knw that it’s me ot it is with all that we are not satisfied with what we do and where we are ..it’s like a Senior once told me enjoy what you are doing rather than fantasying your next move ..

Same feeling comes in all aspects of life let it be good for you or not but we always fantasize about next steps and miss this what we have …it’s me or it’s we 

Goals for better now better then and here ot nowhere all are good …mind blowing episodes need to be there to excite us now I hope to write for a web series or directing one sometime soon..

Blogging the new age medium of VOICE!!!

 I first landed on this site in year 2008 …entered few lines deleted few lines and let with a half baked title “blogging the new age medium of VOICE”. Was I doing something revolutionary or scribbling something out of the blue or posting something to impress an opposite sex don’t knw what that was ..

However cut to 2022 now it’s definitely not a cutting edge or futurist or a write up to impress an opposite sex( but if that happens I don’t mind ) lol…something’s don’t change with time or with age or with anything unless you want them to change and my relationship with myself is also like that 

I talk to myself to eat healthy, workout and live a balanced life however it always goes to the same old same old habit …I don’t knw it’s me or it’s actually something in me that makes me be just me lol

So many people came and went away in my 40 years existence on the earth but I remained true to myself …I think there is some reliance on self worth that I always go back to the same old person ..

I will write about the details of what I feel in these turbulent times of youth and adult hold what do they remind me of my childhood and the promises that I made to myself and where r those goals and promises now 

Today 30 May 2022 is a great start date for my discussions on self some will say that why I am writing about my self and my promises and aspirations and goals what I had for myself and I would remind that I need to work on myself to reach to those hola that I saw in my teens